NameUnknown Ex Muslim

I'm ex Muslim from Sudan, 23 years old, I was religious person before turning to agnosticism, I can't face my family with this change and I can't leave home or travel alone because I'm girl and Islam prevent it and my family is religious.. So I think about leaving Sudan, I just need help to do this and what I'm supposed to do in order to travel to Europe, because the choice of staying in my country is hurming me a lot and it's ended me up by thinking about suicide.