Namecavia porcellus

Good evening, first of all i apologize for not using my real name because i am still scared to be honest. i am a neuroscientist and i was born into an orthodox system which i have completely left behind. i have changed countries.
i saw YouTube videos of the group including the apostate azaan and absolutely loved them. i already got tattooed in a way that is anti religious and have been contemplating about getting an apostate tattoo as well. i would love to come out and be an active part of this beautiful community. Kindly Help. i am more than willing to reveal my identity and everything else but you must be aware that it is quite scary.
Kindly help.